Well we got the Judge's decision today, we lost. This just means that the judge did not throw the Birthfather's case out; we are not loosing Lincoln. We are appealing the Judge's decision and are currently waiting for a new court date. From what my Lawyer says, it will be 3-7 months before we can get back into the court room. If we loose the appeal then we will actually go to a custody battle. We are hoping we never make it there. Today has been a rough day, we were hoping we would be celebrating. I guess that are celebrating will have to come a little later. I feel sad, angry, confused, and scared. I know my Father in Heaven is mindful of us at this time, I feel his comfort. I know trials make us stronger and I am grateful to be strengthened. At this time I want to ask our family and friends again for your prayers. Your prayers and support have already brought such comfort and we are so grateful to have such amazing people in our life! The way I make it through trials is by thinking of everything I have to be grateful for. So if you are bored of reading the update, it is over and my "therapy" is starting. This is a good time of year for this anyway!
I am Grateful for:
1. My Sweet Husband He is so mellow and sweet. He goes to work everyday so that I can raise our children. He never complains. He is content, hardworking, helpful and a great father. He calms me down when I am freaking out. He only freaks out over things that are extremely important. I love to see him get passionate over the things that are important to him! He loves his family so much and we love him!
2. My Kenedy She keeps me on my toes all day. She makes me laugh harder than I ever thought was possible. She is such a spitfire and I love it! She has the sweetest little heart. When I was crying over the judge's decision, she said, "Mom it be OK! I love you!" I love how at random times she will say the sweetest little things like, "Mom, you a good mom!" "Mom, I just love you so much!" I truly don't know what I would do without my Princess Baby!
3. My Lincoln I remember thinking I loved Kenedy so much and I wasn't sure I could love another as much. It is amazing how much love your heart can hold! He is the most mellow little man. I love what a mamma's boy he is; it makes me smile from the inside out! I love his huge grin and his adorable little face. My life would not be complete without my Angel Baby!
4. My Family They are the best! Sometimes I just cry at how lucky I am to have them FOREVER! They are my best friends and my eternal support! I have received phone calls, emails, and visits from my family today and I want them to know how much I appreciate them. Thanks mom for leaving work early to sit with me while I cried, answered phone calls, did the dishes, cleaned up toys, did enrichment stuff; just so I didn't have to do it alone!
5.The Gospel Where would I be without it? How would I cope with anything?
6. My Savior I love knowing that no matter what I feel or what I am going through my brother understands! This gives me so much peace!
7. My Birthmoms and Their Families I have my Princess baby and my Angel Baby because of these miraculous women. I owe them my life!
8. My Friends I have the worlds greatest people in my life! You are all the best! You support and love me. You listen to me when I laugh, cry, talk and talk and talk, and read my long lists of things I love to make my self feel better. Thank you to you all!
9. This Trial no matter how hard or how expensive this is, I have a son from it. I would not ever trade that! It is making me sit back and realize what is truly important in life. It is making me turn towards my Father in Heaven. IT IS MAKING ME STRONGER!
I could go on and on, but these are the top things in my life that I thank my Father in Heaven for daily! We are such blessed people and I am feeling better already!
I could go on and on, but these are the top things in my life that I thank my Father in Heaven for daily! We are such blessed people and I am feeling better already!
